Friday, April 9, 2010

Adjective

Sai - Ya - Jin
Sai: Companions
Ya: Valley
Jin: Virtue

Literally meaning "Companions of the Universe's virtues".

"Yasai" is a different word altogether. Their names are puns but that's all part of the light humor peppered on the generally grievous nature of the circumstances...Whether my name is really Son Brolly, their names are Son Goku, King Vegeta and so forth or not is irrelevant. I like the way the nickname sounds though so I use it. We wouldn't dare share our real names (I don't think I'd even remember it) with you.

FEARLESSNESS - RIGHTEOUS ANGER - EMPATHY - RESTORATION - LIGHT

FEAR - ANGER - HATRED - SUFFERING - DARKNESS

Regardless as to whether you are fearless or not, anger is raw, untamed. The wolf and an open cage after a long stint in imprisonment. How you would use it determines how you are used, for it is a mutual correspondence of sentience and cooperation. Son Goku sensed the Prime Evils beneath the glass, thus explaining his ability to transcend to the fourth (of five) steps in righteous strength, though such is nearly impossible to attain in the land of the living due to the difficulty of technology to reach the heights of restraint (like anklets and bracelets that weigh that of large planets, solar systems and such) that the Kais can manipulate in their realm. I am being manipulated by the Prime Evils, attempting to convert me to evil and cause my loved ones and I great, needless suffering. I combat, even in my dreams. Thus explaining my ability to reach the fifth step in this coma's slumber and the fact that I will retain my combat prowess. Clarity and purity exist on either side. What separates either, forever and with finality, is their inter-relationship with other life. Whereas the Prime Evils (and most other darksiders for that matter) would think nothing of even the slightest aggression and source of suffering for even so little as a single life, the empath simply knows:

"It's not right."


The Force is very real. It is ki, chi, qi or whatever else you would name it. The darksiders' abilities to manipulate reality itself is quite obvious through my own perceptions. My senses, they're cheated by the "dark side" whether I'd allow it myself or not. The Jedi's teachings are those of respect for oneself and others, compassion, mercy, restraint, humility and patience. They teach detachment from material possessions and bid caution where one's emotions for allies, loved ones or relatives come in. Though a fierce sense of protection is only natural (like the grizzly protecting her cubs), one can easily fall into darkness if they let the anger (which could be a confluence for evil) in reaction to the threat get the best of them. Though the Jedi is ever merciful and restrained, they know when none should be given.

Clarity!
Clarity!
Clarity!

The darksiders might have all of these traits but there is one, very obvious, difference: The means. What means a Jedi would never consider to bring about a certain end a darksider would perform. Now the Saiyajin race comes in. A particularly unique breed resembling humanity in every respect except for one, simple detail: Their furry, monkey tails. These attachments cause a certain reaction underneath the light of a full moon: The transformation into a gigantic, uncontrollable monster. Part literary device and part literal machination. They are, however, a source of weakness, easily eliminated with the severing of the tail, however. Half-breeds must do this repeatedly while the pure-bloods need only have it done once. There is an event that can bring about the taming of the beast: A sense of protection. When one has ascended to the fourth step, should they polymorph again, they will be a great, golden ape (the first, the legend of ancient times is a fable spoken of with awe) and, if control is retained, will, instead of merely wreaking havoc until the full moon's light is eliminated, ascend to their ultimate form. The question being, of course, as to how one polymorphs when their tail has been severed if such is necessary. A simple dragon's wish and a full moon's light (whether artificially created or natural) can remedy this if the need is dire. I know that the need is dire. One should make sure to perform the test in a remote area. The test itself need not bring about feelings of caustic dread for those who enter it with a pure heart will instantly gain self consciousness (like the awareness of another's words supposedly coming from oneself while watching his own dream) when they should see one they hold a fondness for. A good friend, their child or a lover. A particular few, blessed with great focus and concentration, need not any of these to pass the test. Herein comes the turn: If your heart should be aligned with evil and darkness when you attempt this and you attempt to ascend in your polymorphed state, you will fail and your heart will be crushed, killing you instantly. Fraudulence will get you nowhere if the Saiyajin's blood flows in your veins. The Saiyajin differs from the other humanistic races in several aspects:

  1. Their innate, great strength of will (mind, soul) and body.
  2. Their ability to become physically stronger when recovering after being brought near death, whether in their first or second life.
  3. Their ability, when prepared, of a pure heart, without fear and with absolute conviction, to overcome an opponent of overwhelming strength through deep reservoirs of despair (whether coming from a source of desire to protect the innocent from tyranny and harm or from great jealousy) and unbridled righteous fury.
You do not become "part" of The Force upon your first death but rather through your second. Those who are born into their second death with hearts of darkness are cast into the abyss, where they will never return in non-existence. The truly harrowing of evil souls are reincarnated, their darker selves vanquished into oblivion upon their first death for the land of the dead is not enough to contain some who would seek to wander. Those of a good heart who fall in their second life are given to The Force, like a resurrection of life dissipating amongst a field of grass. When you die, you are brought to The Chamber of Judgement, where your sentence, absolute in it's finality, is cast. Those who are evil fall into the Home for Infinite Losers. What happens there depends on your "ranking" amongst the Prime. Powerful darksiders enjoy an infinite time out amongst the others...Those lesser creatures are placed within the jagged mountains, where the Golden Box's chambers delve deeply. What happens in there is not to be physically felt by any outside the masonry, by any who do not "deserve" it. So it is said by the Golden Box's creators, The Judge of Death, The Good Lord Alpha, The Good Lady Omega, Deus Ex Machina and so it always has been and will be. Those of a good nature are allowed into The Grand Kai's Chamber, located beneath the Choirs of Heaven where The Benevolent Two sit with their band members. None have, nor will ever even see these Choirs save those within. The Grand Kai's Chamber is much like the land of the living with feasting, entertainment, lovemaking and friendly competition that goes on for eternity. Those Dedicated Warriors of the Light, Servants of The Force, so as to help protect the Universe from harm, regardless of natural death, retain their youthful state in their second life. It is a conscious choice, like any other though the requirement that you retain your corporeal form is necessary. If one so chooses to, instead, simply rest in the Grand Kai's Chamber, they retain the corporeal body as it was when they died of natural causes.

I will admit to my hubris and lack of respect for an enemy that I have only recently come to known has more than clouded my judgment as of late. I will admit to anger that has sometimes not been admirable in nature. What's left then but reflection, redemption, absolution and patience for what's to come? Of my future I am certain, I believe and I know I will not fail. I have to wake up because there are important things I must do. I won't die here and I certainly won't be a prisoner of this spell for much longer.

My great suffering, for 22.5 years and counting, has been spiritual and physical.
I am going through grave injustice, trickery and humiliation in a greatly weakened physical form, dwelling in a world of another's creation where the pain is constant and sharp.
Further imprisonment and physical suffering at the hands of another will not be permitted.
It will not happen.
These debts will be absolved for they are based on a non-existent entity.
The time, doubtless approaches.

I KNOW WHO I AM.
I KNOW WHO I FACE.
MY ENEMIES, MY FEARS ARE:
DIABLO: THE LORD OF TERROR
MEPHISTO: THE LORD OF HATRED
BAAL: THE LORD OF DESTRUCTION
&
ANY PRISON FOR MY MIND

This is not the true battleground for the Prime and I. It never has been or will be. It is merely the prison I wait patiently to awaken from.

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