Nothingface

It's always been easy for me to surmise what I think or feel about something. I used to be the kind of person who simply let external stimuli influence my thoughts and subjective views. I'm a player of games, so I'll humor their sycophantic mewing and pretend. The word of the day, of course, is "apophenia". Omelets with red and green peppers. The tiny radio machines in my head are equating me with meth dealers. They must work so hard. That's neither here, nor there in the literal sense since it's always unspoken of. I wouldn't doubt for a moment that they'd bring their effeminate need to boast their superior ability to spew subterfuge whilst dismissing at the very same time anything I might try to even reason with. Have you ever gotten into an argument with someone about a subject that they were more than happy to drone on with you for hours while, at the same time, brazenly stating that they didn't even know what you are "talking about"? It's easy. Like scripting a computer. You allow the language to run it's course and simply throw in an "if and then" exception. Is it acknowledged? Of course. If it's spoken of directly, however, then it never happened. The money must be orgasmic in it's quantity. I get the feeling that there are plenty of individuals (and that's stretching) in this world more than pleased as pie to try and regale me with their Freudian (with not too little of a Nietzschean confluence) Junta.

If there is no such thing as a God,
Then it's okay to do bad things.

If all inherent qualities to something are, through a neat little stretch of felonious logic, based off the language (whether verbal or in the form of an electrical impulse between synaptic receptors), then it's all illusory! Good, bad, right, wrong? These are all just "ideas" that are no more grounded in reality, apparently, then the constructs of love, fury and punishment. Hell of a load in the mouth, eh? It's not a "different" world that the liars and thieves live in. The tuxedos and gowns know where they are. My question, then, is why even bother trying to compensate in the first place with verbal foreplay and eventual fornication in the public spotlight? They've got all the guns to begin with. Do the numbers really frighten them that much? If I'm not one to survive a series of conflicts, I'd be okay with that because it's still the truth as opposed to whatever the fuck you might call this. I'd be more than happy with the idea of "civilization" if it didn't inherently involve the acceptance of this Village movie lunacy. That analogous movie reference applied on several different levels although I'm sure nobody would ask. My only remorse is that I've not even the faintest as to what to do. Where to begin. Will it be mine or someone else's? Will there be a long, tumor-creating, coma-inducing life ahead for this individual? I heard the word "gripe" just now. They never stop. It's a 24 hour pit crew at the helm of the machines whispering softly into a mic of sorts.

And now for something completely different...

A question arises: Who the fuck are you to claim a word for your own? Does the sting of a set of phonetic vowels and consonants bother you so much? Gripe more. I think that if I was to use a racial slur, that it wouldn't be the word that defines me as "prejudiced". It's my belief in whatever particularly fashionable stereotypes had been cut out that does. Not that I actually believe them, of course. Well, either way, I'm sure we can all be civilized in person and anonymously. At least I can anyways. I've yet to encounter any individuals who have called me cracker, honkey, greenhorn, Portugee, etc so I've yet to enter a situation that warrants using a word of that level of offense.

There is, indeed, a fucking lot of pretense and she laughed so hard in her cup...

I'll leave you, whatever you might be, with a quote you might have already known.

"Upset? Is that the word? I used to get upset. When I got a flat tire, when a plane was delayed. I used to get upset when the Yankees won the series. So if that's what upset means, what am I feeling now? If you know the word, tell me because I don't."